Art Discussion, New Work

Exhibiting My First Sculpture: God As The Artist

My spirituality and faith resonate with me the most when I think of God as an artist. I don’t feel closest to God in the practices of church, though I do pop in occasionally for the community aspect. I’ve never been much of one for traditions, or groups, or organized religion in general even growing up raised as a Christian in childhood/teenhood. I hated the forced socializing of youth group after already draining my battery at school all day. As someone with about a two-note singing range, and who is also picky about the style of music I like, I never understood why singing was the only way I was able to celebrate faith. Can’t I stand in the back and draw or paint??? No, it is when I am outside alone in nature, taking in all the details of the sky, the tiny veins on a leaf, the beauty and intricacy of moss and mold, the teensy tiny legs of scuttling insects, the many colors (in Michigan, mostly many shades of black, yellow and brown but still!) of a bird feather, that I feel my faith bloom.

No matter what your beliefs are, we can all agree that we are blessed to be surrounded by so much vibrant beauty in our natural world. The plants and living creatures we share our lives with are so detailed and unique in color, pattern, and personality – the most amazing works of art! Our surroundings could have been all gray, streamlined, and plain and still function – but instead, we have been given the greatest gift. We are lucky to be surrounded by such diversity. Meditating on this thought helps me remember gratitude, and feel a connection to the world around me and my place in it.

I am primarily a 2D artist, but was opened up to the possibilities of clay hand building when I took a beginner class with Artshop, the inclusive program I am the lead instructor for. I later ended up as a long term sub now and again for this very same class. Though I never made anything notable out of traditional kiln fired clay, I discovered I could do the mini, picky little detailed things I wanted to with polymer clay, and even better for me I wouldn’t need the use of a kiln. Part clay, part assemblage, I sculpted all of the animals, and combined them with wooden drawing model hands, a sacrificed paint brush of mine that was past its prime, and a miniature picture frame left over from the tiny reliefs I first started creating when getting into polymer clay (The first on the left is still available in my shop, so take a look!).

3D art was always such a struggle for me in class throughout grade school and college, so I never dreamed my first real attempt as an official artist would be accepted into a juried show! My mind is turning over all the possibilities for the future, and I am excited to continue lifelong learning in arts.

Last year’s entry for the Animals In Art juried show was the largest painting I’ve ever completed … This annual January show seems to be one for firsts!

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New Work

‘Patience’ : Mixed Media Surrealism

Chugging along rather slowly, I’ve finished the 4th installment of my current Fruits Of The Spirit series, Patience. This is an apt theme, as this series is one of the slowest yet, and I am not used to working slow! Sometimes it really irks me that I’m over halfway through 2024 and have just this month been finishing up some of my started pieces, being used to finishing 15-20 new artworks a year sometimes. This comes with the territory of working larger, and accepting more opportunities outside of my studio like public art and murals, live painting at events, and vendor markets. The 2 works below were started way back in 2021!

Patience is a loaded concept for me, and a lot of reflection went into this piece as there were a number off different directions it could take.

I’m told I have a lot of patience with “difficult” people, and that I have unconditional patience with my students when I’m teaching. I’ve found my particular flavor of patience through working with individuals with disabilities and mental health issues in some of the art programs I teach through, but for most of my life I would not describe myself as a patient person. Though typically considered advanced academically, I was perpetually late to the party where anything else was concerned growing up, or at least it felt that way. Whether completely accurate or partially a perception based on comparison to my friends or peers, this cultivated a lot of internalized anger; last to learn how to ride a bike, last to get invited to parties or social gatherings, last to go on a date, last to see their favorite band live, last to land a ‘real’ job, last to … I know this is a relatable feeling for many, but to the individual in the moment it feels like life is just passing by. When these typical milestones that may seem insignificant individually keep cumulatively falling by the wayside, it chips away at your self worth – especially when you don’t know why you can’t just ‘get it together’. I always find it funny that when I catch up with people I haven’t seen in a long time, they are amazed by all the things I HAVE done, because I sure don’t see it that way. Sometimes when we don’t reach all those wonderful but pretty bland, typical milestones we end up feeling so singled out that we miss all the unique, interesting milestones we have reached. 

My first art show where I won an award was my college showcase senior year at CMU (Grand prize, baby!). I took to the streets /slash/ internet and asked people what their most obscure goal was, and then illustrated the results and made them into a book. Deep down, I knew that there was no such thing as a “typical” timeline and that we define our own milestones, and I think that’s why that concept so appealed to me.

Patience is knowing that seed you hold can become a forest. Patience is deeply integrated within faith, and there are many times when I think that both patience and faith are just the goofiest things ever. But then I feel a cool shade overhead and suddenly realize that my tiny seed has become a tall, strong tree and I didn’t even notice it was growing. I think my younger self thought certain things would have happened in my life by now that haven’t, BUT I also think my younger self never thought other things would have happened by now that did. 

If you want to see some of the process, a closeups of the actual piece, and hear the symbolism behind the different elements of “Patience” please check out the video below.

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